Something About Bleeding Hearts....

The purpose statement for this blog is:

I'm a cooker, a baker, a health enthusiast, and a notorious lover of coffee (who plans to open her own coffee shop/bakery in the future). This blog is going to highlight my cooking escapades, my life via health and fitness, and my adventures to different coffee places all over the United States. Enjoy!

(I also have a handful of older posts that have no real purpose or theme. I was just trying to get into this whole blog business at that point.)




Today I graduated from college….

….and now I feel like a real adult. Time to pay up on my loans and work in my field for a bit before applying to grad school to get a higher degree.

I feel like I’ve just been kicked out of the nest.



Time Stops for No Man

My life has been a tumultuous mess as of late. I’ve been eating horrifically, sleeping without ever feeling rested, and all around severely depressed and angry. I couldn’t figure out what in my world was causing this so I raged against everything and no, it wasn’t getting better.

Through a series of extremely aggravating and suicide-inducing events it became crystal clear what was wrong: everything, but more specifically my future plans.

[Brief interlude - For those of you who aren’t aware I graduated from college in December with a BA in psychology. I came home to work and save up for a move to Kalamazoo and a BS in exercise science.]

So those frustrating events made it pretty clear that going to Western was just not going to happen. I sucked it up after a minor/huge breakdown and began looking for jobs my degree offered me. Well most jobs require upper level degrees, which I knew. But they all sounded awesome….and I rediscovered why I picked psychology in the first place. My plans became moving to Kalamazoo, getting a mental health related job, study like hell for the GRE, and apply to graduate school.

Once I admitted that in my heart I felt lighter, happier, and no longer was I raging. It was an ugly time, but it was because I was trying to shove myself in a place I didn’t fit. I felt as of I had wasted so many opportunities at Calvin so I was trying to relive that by choosing something I was vaguely interested in just to have a second chance at the college experience. Well those times are past and I can’t make myself into that person. I was trying and failing, killing myself in the process.

I’m here, a little battle worn but better. So to the future: bring it because I’m ready,



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readyplayerone: Hey Tumblr, we’re giving away 24 signed copies of Ernest Cline’s Ready Player One and all you need to do to enter is reblog this post.  We’re going to randomly pick a new winner every weekday until we run out of copies so start reblogging. The first winner gets pulled on Monday morning. Good luck and May the Force be with you. 

readyplayerone:

Hey Tumblr, we’re giving away 24 signed copies of Ernest Cline’s Ready Player One and all you need to do to enter is reblog this post. 

We’re going to randomly pick a new winner every weekday until we run out of copies so start reblogging. The first winner gets pulled on Monday morning. Good luck and May the Force be with you. 



Reblogged from readyplayerone
readyplayerone: Hey Tumblr, we’re giving away 24 signed copies of Ernest Cline’s Ready Player One and all you need to do to enter is reblog this post.  We’re going to randomly pick a new winner every weekday until we run out of copies so start reblogging. The first winner gets pulled on Monday morning. Good luck and May the Force be with you. 

readyplayerone:

Hey Tumblr, we’re giving away 24 signed copies of Ernest Cline’s Ready Player One and all you need to do to enter is reblog this post. 

We’re going to randomly pick a new winner every weekday until we run out of copies so start reblogging. The first winner gets pulled on Monday morning. Good luck and May the Force be with you. 



The Funniest Description of Hello Kitty…

…and I found it in a vampire book: The Fall - Guillermo del Toro and Chuck Hogan.

….a glow in the dark Hello Kitty charm….Fet looked it over. “I never understood this fucking cat. The head is too big. How is it even a cat? Look at it. Is it sick with..with water inside it?
“Hydrocephalic, you mean?” Said Eph, wondering where this was coming from.
Fet ripped off the charm and tossed it away. “It’s a jinx. Fucking cat. I hate that fucking cat.”

Thank you, Fet. Spoken like a true Russian….only this Russian (I mean me) adores Hello Kitty.



Bleh…

Today was my cheat day and to be honest…I didn’t like it. Maybe it is because on most peoples’ cheat days they eat their meals then go have like cake or eat something not so healthy for a meal. I just snack like a crazy person. I eat a little of this and a little of that. Either way its never satisfying. Nothing I nibble on really tastes all that great and makes me happy unless its fruits or veggies. It appears I have thoroughly conditioned myself to want, crave, and enjoy only healthy foods.



Quick Rant about America’s Next Top Model

The show is called ‘America’s Next Top MODEL’ not ‘America’s Next Top Idol/Model Superstar’ so PLEASE…enough with the music videos and having one of the prizes being getting a song professionally recorded. You can’t tell me those bitches all can sing too. Seriously….

And why have all my shows been pissing me off lately? Not a clue.



A Quick Rant about How I Met Your Mother

I recently got into this show thanks to Netflix and Jeremy. I’m finally on season seven and I must get something off my chest.

I HATE ROBIN!!!!!

Her character has always grated on me and I will never like her. And then after what she did in season 7, episode 10 I want to curbstomp that b*&$%.



Quick Gossip Girl Rant

Ready, steady, go!

1) I HATE DAN AND BLAIR TOGETHER!! It’s not even so wrong it is right. It is so far past wrong it shot right past right and plunged into the ‘why in the hell is this happening’ territory. Gross! Make it stop, please. Blair and Chuck belong together. 

2) Lola is awful. I hope her story arc ends soon. I don’t like her at all. She did what all the side characters do - she starts off innocent and innocuous enough and before long is scheming and plotting with the best of them.

3) Serena, what the hell? That is all on that one.

4) And Chuck’s blood donor? Are you freaking kidding me?!

Okay, thank you for indulging me. Now you all can get back to your lives.



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simplyteagan:

1dstuff:

“This is hilarious. First, people say how so many actresses in Hollywood look anorexic, and now they are criticising me for looking normal.” - Jennifer on comments about her weight.

this is one of the main reasons I love her so much. She looks like a real woman and she owns it and she doesn’t care what other people say.

I probably won’t see The Hunger Games, but she is a mega hottie. Can’t get over how gorgeous she is.

Seriously? Seriously? Can we all get out heads out of our butts and realize this girl is SMOKING HOT!?!? Looking like you snort cocaine for every meal is not attractive..or realistic, unless you want to die in like five to eight years (months, okay I don’t know how long it actually takes). When I saw ‘Hunger Games’ I remember thinking, “Wow…look a real hottie.”

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